No, I cant leave you now, at any cost

I never expected myself writing this post but some well experienced aspects of life plus some beautiful, well hit words by the one I value the most in my life forced me to change my mind and here I am.

Can we ask an ocean to return some particular water droplets ?
Can we ask a honeybee to return the nectar from a particular flower ?
Can we ask a paper to return the ink marked over it ?
Can we ask a spider to set free a fly caught in its web ?
Can we ask our brain to forget the ABCD...Z ?
Can we ask a leather belt to turn back to skin ?
Can a fish propose a bird, or vice versa, for marriage ?

In a similar fashion, we can never bring back any particular day of life.

Days come and go by. Everyday is not the same always.
Life is nothing without struggle. Its like a cricket match which everyone of us is familiar with. Both the playing teams know that either of them will have to loose, they are prepared for the outcome, but still they play and try hard to win.
Then, how could a person like me lose hope? Why so much of negative thoughts wandering nearby, why, why ??? I could find no answer.

But ya, a feeling of insecurity or rather a ghost with the name of INSECURITY had caught me under its influence. But insecurity about what ? Was it about a sense of loosing something, something extremely close ?

Yes I guess, but soon I realised :

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What did I bring with myself at birth ?
I had never expected whatever I am today.
I was scheduled to burn myself in the hotness of the Shivnagri Nalagarh.
But now, here I am, sitting with a sweater on, in the Queen of Hills, back home.

Whatever I expected in my life, I could never achieve that, maybe because that was not meant for me at all.

Today, I am considered as the most lucky person by one and all (even though the same people are damn jealous).

Today, I am being specially told by my well-wishers------

"Veer ji, tuhadi wajah naal Punjabiyan di vi kadar hon lag payi is University ch"

Then I was also told my my insecurity factor not to be insecure, only then I could realise how big a fool I were about to act so negatively. I know, I have nothing to loose now.

Are yaar, by God's grace, I dont have any bad addictions, no bad company or any such interest nor any grudges against anyone inside my heart, most of the times, I am seen wandering around places of worship, my God always listens to my prayers even before I pray. All credit to Him for everything I am.

Such beautiful friends and great things I have on my part today that I could be the happiest person. Please God, save me and our friendship from all sorts of bad eyes, I devote everything to You.

***Je laayi yaari, mul modna paina,
Tu agge lang gaya, tenu fark ni paina,
Main picche hat gaya, mera kakh ni rehna***

How could I forget that I belong to the community where there is no place for any sort of insecurity.

***Chidiyaan naal je baaz ladawan,
Taan hi Guru Gobind Singh Naam dharawaan***

I am ready for everything now, bas meri rakheyo laaj Gurudev.

Go Away & Enjoy your Life

There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside apart
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Like a wingless little bird

Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And on a journey I embark

In search of answers
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you

My guiding star in darkness
Like a little stream in the desert
Everything about you seems flawless
But that is what causes the hurt
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Your perfect features do not belong to me
You do not deserve my chains
You need to live and see
What it means to be free

So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream

So go and discover it all
And know that wherever you go
Whatever you do and might feel
The only thing you need to do is call

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Agar khud ko dekhun,to kuch nahi mere palle,
Uski rehmat aur aapke pyar ko dekhun,to meri balle-balle
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Expectations & Compromise

"Experience is the greatest of all Teachers"
Life provides us with unthinkable situations that we never dreamed of, ever.
Its like a dream, where you find yourself in circumstances that you have never even thought of, at places that you have never even seen or been to.

Only life is the one that teaches you everything. Your parents can only pay your fees at schools, the teachers can only make you hold the pen & paper properly, but its all in your hands what you wana make out of that.

Its like the case of a matchstick that can be used to lit up candles symbolizing the ray of HOPE and even pyres are set ablaze with the same.

"God is the best player of our Life"
He knows about all of our needs. He provides us with opportunities to do all things in life either good or bad. Its in our own hands to grasp or loose them. In the end, we can never blame Him.

"Dream it, Deserve it & Achieve it"
All of us dream about our desires to be achieved but we forget to first being able to deserve them. God never wants His children to get pampered. I think He follows the Chinese proverb:

"Give your child a fish & you feed him for a day,
Teach him fishing & you prepare him to feed himself for the whole life"

If you ask something from God & He fulfills your desires at the same time, who will worship Him then? Every damn thing in this world has its own value but it needs to be realized.

"Dream, Desire & Responsibility"
You dream of something and you desire something else, is it so? If yes, you will never achieve it, until or unless your dream and desire are one & the same.

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But unfortunately, most of the times when these both get together, a third concept also arises like a villain in a romantic love story, by the name of Responsibility.

Your responsibility towards your parents who are the ones who made you capable of dreaming & desiring, towards your profession for whose sake your parents did everything they could, towards your well-wishers who want to see you succeed in every sphere of life.

"The Climax"
As there are so many expectations from you by so many people. Since you are also bound to them, if you know that you cant handle all your dreams, desires & responsibilities in a single hand, then the most difficult concept of life arises. I even fear of naming it as its a very simple word to be mentioned of but extremely hard to be followed but I'll have to mention it here as no one can escape reality, its COMPROMISE.
Compromise with your dreams, your own desires, your own friends but most importantly, compromise with your own self.

How can you compromise with the one you love more than yourself, that too for your parents or well-wishers whom you know very well, will not be there with you for your whole lifetime?

I mentioned it as most difficult because my eyes got full of tears while only writing the previous line.

Ironically, last night, while going through two of my syllabus books, one by an Indian & the other by a foreign author, I noticed that the Indian dedicated his work to his parents while the foreigner, to his love.

I could understand that Indians are the most responsible people, they dont love their own selves & their families, they dont fall in love rather they are not supposed to do so, they are the best while compromising, the foreigners are not responsible, they dont care for their parents and they never compromise.

I am ready to compromise if my God promises that my parents will remain with me all through my lifetime & die after me and I really wish this comes out to be true.

Am I correct in my understanding and my decision, please let me know?
Also, cant all of our dream, desire & responsibility go hand in hand?

But before concluding, I dedicate this content & even my everything else (either on or away from this blog) to the one I love even more than my hearts content.

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Dard e dil, dard e jigar, dil me jagaya----aapne
Pehle to main shayar tha, Aashiq banaya----aapne
Maine to bas, wo sab likha, jo kuch likhaya----aapne
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